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Learning Music for peace?

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 Many come to learn music with me to feel peace, joy, happiness etc. But what most of them experience is the opposite after 1 or 2 classes. They arrive to each class happily but within a few minutes, they are witnessing flood of anxiety, worry, restlessness, shame while I just see and not react and we keep singing/playing music..  This is the reality. Peace is not something you sit down and experience immedietely after singing few swaras and come back next day or week for the same experience again. Music cares and loves much more than providing a temporary relief. Getting into regular learning from someone who sees music as an expression of love and not as an object of gratification and material success, is a challenge. It changes one's entire life energy, it wipes out all the concepts, mind's habitual thinking and believing.The old energy do not work and play anymore in the new beginning. Music brings to surface everything that one has not yet encountered within themselves to...
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Being seen

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Being seen ...  Being seen by someone is so very important to all of us.. It is the core longing... When someone listens to one's pains, stories, confusions, frustrations, it gives a feeling of comfort to the one who is sharing. One feels less odd, less rejected, less hated, lesser alone for sometime- and strangely more connected to that person (Co-dependency)! A sense of immediete validation and emotional belongingness arise.  The one who listens, feels overburdened, loaded with pain energy, not knowing what to do with it.., scattered, heavy, exhausted, drained, what not... The belief in lack, faithful pursuit of self-hate, self-rejection, self-judgement, self-doubt is plainly transferred to the other who is innocently (ignorantly/unconsciously/unknowingly) receiving all the dark energy (tamas) on offer with all fresh energy to start with- not knowing where it was leading to. The initial light of Love energy of the listener is diminished in a few seconds to dense and heavy cl...
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Doorway to Silence

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I have approached (only) two kind beings for psychological/spiritual help after a traumatic incident 4 years ago.  First one was a young and fine therapist from Mumbai.  A wonderful woman, younger than me. She spoke little in the sessions, as a rule. I was encouraged to speak from the beginning till the end of the session. She only listened and took notes :D . I recollected memories from the past, discovering where the trauma started. I expressed more. I felt valued, significant, hopeful. Laughed more at discoveries. And cried and cried. Cried and then laughed. Vented out feelings of betrayal, fears of abandonment. Felt better after each session. But, did I think about the girl on the other side who offered herself completely as a “Therapist”?  I felt light and was ready to "this-time-more-consciously" create another round of mess with all my validated emotions :D. But how is she feeling? Did my emotion care about hers? More emotion means more concern or empathy, right? N...
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Stories of Rabindranath Tagore- Netflix

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Having spent many days watching lot of stuff on Netflix, I finally found something extremely meaningful. From the time I started watching the series of "Stories of Rabindranath Tagore", I have falling in love with every story. So filled with true emotions, truth, meaningfulness and righteousness, the stories are depicted in such a way that the watcher naturally goes into himself, questions himself, relating himself with the stories analyzing his life. This is what I did. The stories express the real problems of humanity, the true feelings of people and impossible observation of human psyche. The content shows clearly about the greatness of the writer. I am sure he must be an enlightened master with stories to tell, teachings to pass on. As I watched about 12 series now, I have got so many answers to my own questions which remained unanswered for so many years. At the end, all I felt was the acceptance of the problems itself. The level of wisdom the writer prove...
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Trip to Kotachadri Hill

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It's my 8th time to the Kodachadri Hills and each time has been different and beautiful  experience . This time I realised that the trip to Kotachadri is very simple, very natural and a basic requirement to be in touch with the Nature. I got a call from my home asking me if I could join. Not thinking twice, I immediately booked the ticket for the next available train and I was home before they expected me. After a lazy day at mom's home, we started the trip early morning. Here is the route we chose this time- Onward: 1. Train from Mangalore to Baindoor 2. Bus to Kollur- 3. Bus to kodachadri ( kollur- Hosanagara bus) Return: 1. Jeep to N agara 2 KSRTC bus to Baindoor 3. Baindoor to Mangalore local train. We started the hike. On the way, we visited the Krishna temple. It was lovely hospitality. Sharing the music with them, we had a heart purification..  The water they offered was so so energetic !! Putting Kadale at the canteen nearby was fulfilling. Then started ste...
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